Update

I can’t type properly cos I got fake nails on Saturday.  I’m kinda handicapped and stuff now.  They look cute though.

Lite n’Easy has been going good, foodwise but a bit pointless when I’ve been going out drinking every night, well except tonight cos it’s Monday and I had personal training instead.

So, Saturday night the dude called.  I had my phone switched off and was in bed really early but around 11 woke up and decided to check if he’d called me.  He had.  He wanted to know if I wanted to go for a drink so I went.  No chance to talk cos he had his mate with him.  It was kinda weird.  I met the mate the first time I met him, and he was a complete douchebag but on Saturday night seemed to be going all out to make a good impression. 

Anyway things are still unclear but then I’m all unclear in my own head.  I have fun with this guy but he’s not someone I want to spend the rest of my life with.  I think I really liked the attention and compliments when I first met him too but that when away fast. 

I think I mentioned too that I have the thought in the back of my head that I will most likely be heading overseas so there is no point starting anything.  It’s really getting to me – not the guy thing but this whole moving overseas but not really knowing if it’s really going to happen or when.  All this year I’ve had to take that into consideration every time I make a decision – what job to take, where to live etc.  It’s like my life is in a holding pattern.

Anyway, back to the man issue: I think the way to go is to just put myself and my needs first.  If I want to go out and he’s around, then I’ll go out.  If I have other things to do, then I’ll pass.  I’m having an alcohol free weekend next weekend and I’m working at the Melb Marathon early on Sunday so no going out Saturday night.