Too many thoughts for one post today!
Goal: In Sept 2006, I got to my goal weight of 70 kgs. That was 3 years ago. I’ve put on around 20 kgs since then. Ha, this is more like a weight gaining blog than weight loss.
Since then, I’ve always held that 70 kg weight as the pinnacle, the shining light of success but lately I remembered something.
When I looked at photos of myself at that time, I wasn’t happy. Happy with the body (still thought I could lose more weight though) but NOT happy with my face. I looked drawn and old.
Last night I found a photo on my phone taken when at the BDO in Jan 08. I looked good in that photo. Not thin but okay. I figured I was around 75 kgs at that time. Today I checked on Calorie King (how convenient to have all my weigh ins online). I was 85 kgs!
That’s the way I’ve been for most of the past year and a half. During that time, I’ve really, really unhappy with how I feel about my body.
I think it’s easy to get caught up in the whole losing weight for the sake of losing weight thing without stopping to remember why you are doing this in the first place.
I AM unhappy at my current weight. I have a spare tyre that would fit a Mac truck! It makes my clothes look bad and I’m always bashing against it.
I need to get back to a place where I’m happy not some number that fits within a BMI grid or anywhere else. And most up, I need to stop feeling miserable. The weight I am now is still something I couldn’t imagine most of my life. I’m doing things I never thought I would. That’s got to count for something.