I’m not in a good mood today. I feel since I’ve set this challenge to lose weight before I go away, I’ve really achieved nothing. I had such high hopes but seem to constantly sabotage myself and keep losing and gaining the same few kilograms.
Arrgghh, I just feel like crap today and that weight loss is a constant struggle – mental battles over every bit of food I want to put in my mouth, it wears you down. I seem to remember this being easy. Maybe it was or maybe that’s just the way things are when you look back.
I went to the football today, intending not to eat anything since I’d just had lunch but it was so damn cold, I ended up having chips and a couple of dim sims…just another day, another bad decision. Struggle, struggle, struggle. Maybe I won’t get over this until I work out WHY – part of me wants to succeed but there is obviously some part that doesn’t.