A few weeks ago, I started a new contract role and had to wait in reception for someone to collect me. On the same day, another Kathryn started in the same department as an admin temp. Of course there were the expected confusions and shenanigans but it all got sorted out.
Later in the day, I sat huddled in my little cubicle and I heard the other Kathryn tell the story. Someone said to her, ‘you could have just pretended to be an IT consultant’, and they all laughed. Except me – I thought that’s not so hard, I do it every day.
Sometimes I look around all the professional people walking around the office and wonder if they all do it. If everyone else feels like a 12 year old dressed up in a suit and making believe that they are really grown up.
Do you actually reach a point in life where you are the person you pretend to be? I don’t even know if I want to – heaven forbid that I ever get TOO mature – but it feels so wrong sometimes. I should be living life for real not just as a game.
You know what I don’t understand – people who say they ‘live life to the full’. What does that even mean? Of course most people only say it on their RSVP profile so maybe it doesn’t mean anything. It makes me feel like I should be racing around from one Xtreme sport to another – jumping out of planes or some other Point Break-esque thing.
But is that really living life to the full, when you’re having to manufacture some experience to feel alive? But what do you do? At any point in time, there is an infinite number of possible things I could be doing and which one of those is the fullest? By the time I work that out, the moment’s long gone and my head spins to the point where I need a nap!
How do people do it? Do you think you’re living your life the best way you can?