You know how people say you should feel your feelings rather than stuffing them down with food, well how do you do that? My feelings don’t like me being in touch with them. My feelings are like an mistreated dog. They go hide in the dark, dank corner under the house where you can’t find them and, if you try to get near them, they snarl and bite.
I think I need a handy checklist of things I could be feeling instead of hunger that I can work my way through. Top of the list would be tiredness. It’s so easy to mistake tiredness for hunger – I guess it’s a natural reaction when you’re tired and can’t satisfy that with sleep or rest to reach for food instead. Food gives us energy after all.
Other than that, I’ve been having a shitty week. Not a major shitty week, no big shitty events just lots of little things that build up to a big trash heap of shitty. I’m sure I’ll get over it especially since we have the weekend and public hol coming up. I just need to make plans so instead of feeling stuck and defeated by situations I can’t control, I can make the most of them.
I also need to KILL that bloody mouse that keeps waking me up. The person who invented the expression “quiet as a mouse” had no freaken idea cos I wake up every time the mouse does anything… I’m sure it’s going to attack me in my sleep.
I’ve started my novel. I’m tentatively calling it Beach Bingo Bloodbath. No one has died yet but I’ve only written 500 words. I want to watch House of 1000 Corpses for inspiration – I love that movie. Totally awesome.