I’ve been feeling exhausted lately. Yesterday I had to go into the city and thought I’d do a gym workout while I was there, but just couldn’t then I thought I’d walk home and didn’t even manage that. Today, I just want to sleep. It’s been an emotional draining few days.
Part of me thinks if I need rest I should have it, the other is freaking. I’ve got workout schedules and fat to burn. And I used to find being lazy so easy.
I can’t believe Anna Nichol Smith is dead. Years ago, many years ago now, when she got fat and lost weight the first time, I had an article from a magazine showing her before pics and then the skinny Anna Nichol in a pink gingham dress. I pinned it up over my desk at work and told everyone that she was my inspiration. If Anna Nichol could lose weight, so could I. Of course it didn’t actually work, but I thought lots about it.