Crap of my life

I “broke up” with the dude on the weekend, if you can call it that – as in getting drunk, getting snarky, saying a few things then sending even snarkier texts. I don’t regret what I said, it was long overdue, but I regret doing it in that manner. No matter how valid your point, if you are drunk and angry it just comes across as drunk and angry.

Anyways, I’m off to Japan in 2 days time. Very anxious about getting concert tickets and all manner of things.

I was a ball of Stressy McStress with a side order of stress this morning but had a PT session at lunch time and felt much better. Was worried about my shoulder since I pulled a muscle in it last week and it’s been v sore but seems okay tonight.

Must pack. I feel like I don’t have enough clothes but how much do you need for a week?

Quick Ask

I’ve mentioned a few times on here that I’M GOING TO JAPAN NEXT WEEK!!!! Woohoo! But I just realised I should ask something. For those of you who are friends with me on facebook, please don’t mention it on there. Not that anyone has, but there are certain fb friends who I don’t want knowing about it. Thanks

Thinky thoughts

I am going to Japan in one week! Yah! Except all my plans for losing weight have come to nought! The weight loss the other day was like a mirage… oh well, not much I can do now. I’ll prolly have scouts for the sumos approach me in the street but it’s all good.

If you remember the dude I was talking about the other week, well arggghhh! I thought it was well and truly over – I hadn’t heard from him for a couple of weeks. Then I got drunk and texted him. Mostly to see if he’d reply. Nothing happened, just drunken texting.

Then I was going to see him the next weekend but again lots of texts. Finally he rang to said he was on his way over… at 4.30 am!!! I kinda cracked it.

So the next Friday he sent me a text. I was going to ignore it but as I got my phone out of my bag to show my sister, he must have called at the exact same moment and I accidentally answered it!!! I stared at the phone, not sure what to do then talked to him. He wanted me to meet him for a drink and I said no way, buddy.

The next day I decided I did want to see him (yeah I’m fickle and the weather was hot and I was feeling…) anyway, we went out and he was absolutely awesome and sweet and great.

We were supposed to see each other last Friday but then he had family stuff on.

I just sent him a text now so will see if he replies.

I went to see a psychic the other week. She said a lot of interesting stuff. And some stuff about this guy too. You know, it’s easy for other people to say someone doesn’t treat you the way you deserve and to find someone better but where do you find the someone better? It’s not like I’m passing up good, eligible men to stay with him.

Also when people say to value yourself more or to love yourself… how do you do that? You can’t just go “OK” and it magically happens. Life needs more answers, less questions.

Anyway, on the topic of men… I’m going to see these guys when I’m in Japan. It’s been a hell of a bitch fight getting concert tickets and I’m so scared it won’t work out. I heart them so much. It will be the greatest thing ever if it works out.

Pants truly on fire!

Today I had to help my boss put together some technical questions for a job interview, a kind of mini exam to test out applications. I had to do it when I started and thought it was kind of humiliating. After all, they could see my skills from my resume.

Well, I got an eye opener. Looking at some of the results (not from these applications but past ones). This may should really naive, but people LIE on their resumes! I’m not talking about exaggeration or talking yourself up, I’m talking flat out lying.

The questions weren’t difficult, they weren’t easy but for people with the experience and knowledge they claim to have, mostly answerable.

There were a couple of questions I didn’t know on the test I didand, when I finished, I said I didn’t know the answer, that I’d not encountered the situation before but this is how I’d find out the answer…

I didn’t make something up and think no one would notice!

I don’t think I could blatantly lie. I couldn’t say I had experience when I had no idea about something. I might claim to have more experience than I have — if I have some experience and know I can get by (eg. I say I’ve got a lot of Visio experience. I don’t but it’s piss easy, just everyone seems to think it’s hard but I’d never claim to have say Unix programming experience cos I know jack shit about it). I’m too scared I’d get caught and too scared I’d look like a dick.

Now I’m worried that I’m hurting myself by being too honest. Like when you go to the doctor and they ask you how much you drink or smoke and you are expected to halve the truth cos you know the doctor thinks you are lying and will automatically double it anyway! So you quarter it Is that how it is in interviews — they think I’m lying on my resume and halve my experience?

So, do you lie on your resume? Ever caught anyone out in a big porky? It’s weird seeing the other side.

At Last

After months of hovering around the same 2 kg block of numbers on the scale (those numbers would be 91-93 to be brutally honest), today I’ve broken out! Woohoo… and not in a bad “WTF… I can’t weight that much… oh I must be getting my period…” kind of way either. Nope, I’m down to 90.7.

I’m on hols in a week and a half and I’m determined to be under 90 kgs by then.

So, I stopped with the Lite n’ Easy. I wasn’t losing weight on it. I don’t think it was the program as such but just that I kept having extras (esp booze).

I found it a bit strange – the absolute killer was the day I got a tiny Asian salad for lunch (like a few mouthfuls) then had a 150 calorie dessert with it. That makes no sense – why not a huge salad and no dessert? You could have a bucket of salad for 150 calories!

But the good thing is that it’s gotten me back in the habit of eating at home rather than getting something from the cafe or the fish n’chip shop.

Also, I’m exercising like a demon! Well a lazyish demon… I’m not pushing it too hard but trying to keep up with the schedule. I think I overdid the hills this week though… after a killer session (involving mostly the cross trainer at the gym since I forgot my running bra!), I couldn’t even run 3 days later. Poor legs. I did manage a decent hour last night though.

Most importantly, no booze. I am thinking what is the point of all this effort – the running and the workouts – to come home and drink more calories than I’m burning off! I doesn’t hurt to lay off the demon drink for a while — and that is definitely working on the scales.

Plans

I thought I should get off my butt and maybe update.   Since I’m now registered in the Mountain to Surf, I thought I should have a running plan.  Luckily they have one on their web site.  I jiggered it around a bit.  I’m not into this whole doing your long run on a Sunday business.  I like to do it Friday after work, get it over with then feel validated in overeating all weekend… or something like that! 

So, this is it:
mon – 40-50 min easy
tues – boxing
wed – 30-40 min steady include hills
thurs – pt
fri – longer run more than one hour
sat – Rest
sun – 25-40 min tempo (strong but relaxed

I just wish it would be cool enough for me to go out and run!